Why Do We Live in Flows?

I realize that our lives are made up of flows of our emotions: when we don’t feel right, we might start complaining and that might take over our whole day or whole mindset. When we feel positive and great, our emotion will also take over our mindset and make us feel incredibly optimistic about our lives. I say this because I have been feeling like this recently—when things don’t work out, I feel that my life is so hard and that I have so little room to show who I am when the world is so complicated and it is so hard to find meaning of living when our word will simply be destroyed one day. When this happens, my brain somehow changes itself to another being—as if I am not Margaret anymore, but someone else who is more depressed, happy, anxious, nervous, sassy, etc. Perhaps it is the hormones in my body that dictates how I feel—as I am 14 now. 

Even if it is something going on with my brain, I am not afraid—I know that things will get better, and no matter what I do with this life, I will eventually find an end to any difficulty and tell myself that things will get better. I have the privilege to “solve” global issues that I may not have to experience myself. And just because those issues are getting worse every day, solving them is not my ultimate goal—it is only what we do as a humanity to show our understanding and our empathy to others and the world we share. At a certain point, we might be able to feel the responsibility to show our care and our understanding to a global issue. However, if we live our lives in a way that is not satisfying to ourselves or in a way that feels forceful to us, then perhaps, the meaning of it will only find its way around us—so close, yet not able to be touched.