The Meaning

I know. I have came up with yet another meaning of life again. This is not a new topics on this blog anymore, but I think showing my evolution and the different perspectives I have is important so that you guys can perhaps find your meaning in your life, and that is what I want to do for this blog—help more people find their way and motivation. Thus, let’s dive into it.

I have been listing down a lot of my goals and what I want to do throughout my high school life and a lot of it surrounds me being highly active and not touching fish (in Chinese we have a saying called “摸鱼” which means that someone is not doing what their supposed to do, so the direct translation is “touching fish”) while doing work. However, that is not always the case, as I sometimes may get a message from someone else and I might start replying to them and they bring up another task that I need to complete, and then I realize that I have ten more things to do because of that conversation. That is how I feel at times and that is perhaps how I reach my goals, by multitasking. However, I often reflect on when I start to be in a situation like that and question if it is worthy for me to spend all this time and energy to do all of this when there is a risk and a probability that comes with the success.

Yes, I think about that all the time, and I even question if the process is important when the result may not be as “beautiful” as we thought it would be. I was watching how Hailey Bieber went to New York for her skincare company Rhode’s collaboration with Sephora and her speech at the New York Stock Exchange. I think in those big moments in someone’s life, they might think that that is the highlight, but I think when they look back, it is those small, strengthening moments and times where you fell but you got back up because you were strong that matters—the result is only a sum of those moments, but the real diamonds that shine are the moments, the result is simply a sum.

So perhaps you can only feel and care about what is in front of you, and not what is going to come or the broader picture. I think it is important for us to realize that even if we have big dreams, we still need to prioritize what is front of us, and our environment, and ourself, and who we are as a person. Just like how Mission Impossible puts it: “We live and die in the shadows, for those we hold close, and for those we never meet.”